On my recent trip to El Paso, my brother and I got to discussing politics. It was the time when the former Governor of New York decided to step down. We lamented the fact that Integrity has gone missing. Not just in the lives of our elected and appointed leaders, but in most folks lives. I'm not sure if I'm being cynical or I've become jaded. In either case there seems to be a dearth of integrity. I would like to think that folks are getting tired of looking for someone else to blame for their misfortunes. (The irony struck me that, with this posting, I might be doing the same thing. I hope not.)
There was a time when your word was your bond and you could do business on a handshake. Those times are still here but they seem to be few and far between.
The book I am currently reading is A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. His premise revolves around the concept of ego. (Freud may not have done us a favor by describing the concept. At least we have a word to describe a part of all of us.) According to Tolle, we are all caught up in defending our egos and escaping from the here and now. We spend so much time in defense of our ego that we believe that is reality. We use our emotions to support our ego and attack those who are different. I recommend the book to you all. You can then draw your own conclusions. Try to stay centered on the present.
The other concept that came to mind was Compassion. As I was listening to Mom lament about her life, the injustices others had done to her, how folks long dead had spread malicious lies about her, I couldn't help but realize she was a prime example of many of the things Tolle has to say. I am unable to remember when Mom ever demonstrated compassion. This is probably a result of selective perception and remembrance on my part. It saddens me to come to this realization. Her life is the one she chose, and I suspect that one of the lessons she was to learn in this lifetime is the effects of carrying grudges and not demonstrating compassion. It must have been a tough lesson, because she is still struggling with it.
Just some thoughts from a son who is finally learning to love and forgive her. I know she has done the best she could given her life plan.
Thank you all for your patience, love, caring, and above all, your integrity and compassion.